Bruiseology

OK, it's over 
That's it, I'm quitting 
Yes, I'll deny it 
Never wanted this anyway 

No, it's not over 
I'm never stopping 
I can't deny it 
I've been wanting this all my life 

Or I can go back 
Be the girl that I was 
Before it's easy 
Just admit I don't have the guts 

But do I ever 
Take things so lightly? 
I am a fighter 
Won't surrender all that I've gained 

I'd say there's a conflict here 
The right thing to do's not clear 
Beat my brain up 
Trying to fit the two sides together 

(CHORUS x4:)
Then you hit me with the hard facts 
Then everything cracks 
And that's a bruiseology

It's just a simple 
Change of direction 
Just keep repeating 
Wasn't really me all along 

Over my shoulder 
A fading figure 
Someone who's different 
By a hundred eighty degrees 

Pretend this never 
Happened, I better 
Practice my crawling 
Back with a tail 'tween my legs 

Or is there somewhere 
In this contradiction 
Some place where 
These two sides can meet? 

I'd say there's a conflict here 
The right thing to do's not clear 
Beat my brain up 
Trying to fit the two sides together 

(CHORUS x4:)
Then you hit me with the hard facts 
Then everything cracks 
And that's a bruiseology

OK, it's over 
No it's not over 
l can always go back
But will I ever? 
That's it, I'm quitting
I'm never stopping
Be the girl that I was
Take things so lightly
I can't deny it 
I've been wanting this all my life 

(CHORUS repeats til end:)
And then you hit me with the hard facts 
Then everything cracks 
And that's a bruiseology