It's not the liquor I'm addicted to, it's feeling brave The feeling of not feeling the pain I've been on and off the bottle, I put Oxys up my nostrils, believe me You do anything to breathe before you suffocate I couldn't stop it, staying clean was not an option I was tryna be myself, but being me was such a problem I just wanted to be Thomas, but Thomas was at the bottom of a hole he dug And getting comfortable inside a coffin, ayy He locked in and swallowed the key, caught up, forgot all his dreams Robbed at a common, became embalmed in a toxic routinе Beer was the escape, but I got stuck еscaping Whiskey was the blanket in the coldest basement Way before the fame, I was wasted Freezing, doing anything I could to keep the flame lit To anyone going through the same shit Heaven's got enough angels, you need to stay here And I can't make you stay But sometimes going ain't a choice And every choice you make Is one that you didn't avoid Crash the whip and ditch the car, burn a bridge, follow the stars You'll find monsters in the dark, but nothing's worth it till it's hard Sometimes it's hard to see things clear (through your tears) But anywhere is way better than here (fight your fears) It's not the liquor I'm addicted to, it's feeling tough When you get bullied half your life, you feel weak like you just ain't enough Then you have a couple drinks and you catch a buzz And finally have the courage to defend yourself and throw a punch And that adrenaline goes straight into your brain and blood Addicted to the confidence is practically the greatest drug Chasing dragons every night in all the latest clubs What used to be your favorite thing somehow became a dangerous crutch It was what it was And that's the thing, it could happen to like any of us I had great parents, tight friends, strong morals, nice threads Good school, good looking, good grades, time spent Being normal only lasted for a while One bad choice sparked a downward spiral I've spent half my life tryna climb outta that hole Heaven's got angels, we need you at home And I can't make you stay But sometimes going ain't a choice And every choice you make Is one that you didn't avoid Crash the whip and ditch the car, burn a bridge, follow the stars You'll find monsters in the dark, but nothing's worth it till it's hard Sometimes it's hard to see things clear (through your tears) But anywhere is way better than here (fight your fears) It ain't the liquor we're addicted to, it's everything else The happiness we had, but we forget how it felt We've been drinking with the devil 'cause we're going through hell Pray to God for a little bit of help Man, I been there, I did those things I drank those drinks, I took those pills, I puked in sinks And the truth ain't pretty, listen up, this a tough one You get saved by your angels or become one Crash the whip and ditch the car, burn a bridge, follow the stars You'll find monsters in the dark, but nothing's worth it till it's hard Sometimes it's hard to see things clear (through your tears) But anywhere is way better than here (fight your fears)