The more I think about tonight The more I think I'll never trust again The things I said the way I read this conversation When you wasn't there Think the velocity things change And people forgot even if they were sad It's not a crime to live like this I'm only saying, I wish I was like that If only now and than, I try to be usefull I need something to prove for others and to myself And I'll be lying if I say that I don't have the potential To do the things I have in my net Cause in my mind I'm some kind of a monster Flawlessly executing everything in my head But in reality I have so much to lose I'm almost 22, that's no good for my health I took a drink, when you wasn't there Everything feels blue, when you wasn't there It was a dream I was almost there Everyday's Tuesday, when I'm on my back We think a lot a like We lack comunication, but that's my bad Surviving last year was hard I know that you know it but it was so harsh It was so harsh Just matter of time Before you leave me for good I'm no longer peter pan Live no longer wonderland We share the same things But somehow the shape of you Couldn't remind me less of me That's exactly what I mean But it's impractical to stand by my ways So I just stand by your face That way I don't lose myself Lord, if I'm trying I don't think I deserve it It's pretty absurd how much I look for your help And in reality I don't know if you're real You gave me something to think When you wasn't there