Searching for the meaning of existence The very gist of happiness I've found Flowing from the end of syringe needle Filling bitter emptiness inside He speaks to me through spasms in my veins The one who has the answers to all questions He watches me wherever I go With a gaze that pierces darkness All troubles melt in ghastly flow While I succumb to blindness Centuries of misery For a single day of peace The price to pay for useless pride Torment for my sins The venom pulsing through my veins Like the black currents of Styx Across which my soul is floating toward the haunted shores I will not return to slavor Worshiping the worthless Lead a manequin's existence in an empty shell But once the poison loses all its magic power Shatering the illusions of my crystal tower Golden shine of Jacob's stairway swiftly disappear Angels turn to demons Ejecting me from heaven into hell Once again my heart will heal, time will dry my tears I'll attempt to fly again running from my fears Only to end up once more deeper than before Crossing into nether regions passed the point of no return Wandering about in ether, searching for the promise land Always under the watchfull eye of my master Who once gave me all the power but took away all love And soon He's gonna rid my eyes of their luster Elevated by His power I feel mightier than all Yet forever in the groove of the one who has my soul Captive to the voice of Erebus Destined to remain imprisoned to His morbid influence Handled and manipulated like a puppet by His will While my suffering and burning fuels his existence Till my empty shell is spent in this torture mill Can not find relief in madness Now I plead to you my final whish As I look into your eyes emmitting darkness Please incinerate my carcass back to ash I don't want to be a martyr of the scarlet sky Let me out of this confinement, let me die!!