It's been a long time since I held my head Under water just to feel the need to breathe Everybody does that's what I thought All my life It's been a while I hurt myself To make sure I still feel And it's been a while I carried that around But still Learn to crawl Before you walk It's not that far Not that far Fate is just another step away Hello Never mind how hard I tried at all It's been a while I called you late at night With the pillbox empty falling to the ground Tripping over bottles pumped dry Passing out It's long ago I found myself Unconscious and out cold Hiding in my closet with a razor to my throat It's not that far Fate is just another step away Hello Never mind how hard I tried at all So you know it feels like drowning every time My days turn counter clockwise Seeking for the reason that once got me far Dark clouds keep appearing otherwhiles at all Not that far Fate is just another step away Hello Never mind how hard I tried at all