I've always ended up in front of you With one disappointment after another With carnal wounds - so many times without any notice Once again, will you even bother? Will you bother about the pain They do not know exist within me? So many times I wished it all way But a stain like this is rather hard to miss My dream, your being means so much more than All twisted feeling I was trying to Suppress my nothingness with Beautiful being, you mean so much more than my own mind Even if I want to, even if I long to be next to you I know it's not right to consume your shining surface! My own darkness has made me too naive To dare to search what's behind I need to heal, I need to drain myself Before I can meet you again Shaking, in a confused state I cry Don't let me hurt my most present dream Don't let me become what I do not seem I'll rather die... I rather die But a stain like this is rather hard to miss Not for the beholder, but for me... I can not go on like this I need to meet the one that never fails The only one who never fails my made up dream Your will be done