I could write a book on how to self destruct
Obnoxiously waiting, not giving a fuck
Like a rat in a cage, in a trap with my rage
I can't trust myself that I will ever get out, no no

I'm back now blaming the game
Fucking done with everyone and everything
Light it up just to feel a relief
Drench myself in kerosene

Distracted by reality
Self-made public enemy
Sugar till my eyes would bleed
Came to find a meaning but only found your grief

Take to the world with who you wish to be
Buried sorrows so deep, nobody else can see

Why the fuck am I listening to the bullshit that you plead?
Have I been so low that I thought what you showed would be exactly what I need

Easy to betray
Yeah it's just a game
Just swallow the pill
And smile for portray

This is the part of me
I never wanted you to see
Get out my head I can't seem to go on
Hold on to what I need, stuck in the in between
Drown out the noise that has led me so wrong

Cover me in kerosene
Fuse the in between

Easy to betray
Yeah it's just a game
Just swallow the pill
And smile for portray

Only a game
I don't wanna play

Why the fuck have I been listening?
Why the fuck have I been listening?

This is the part of me
I never wanted you to see
Get out my head I can't seem to go on
Hold on to what I need, stuck in the in between
Drown out the noise that has led me so wrong

Dark days ahead