Once upon a time, I didn’t love myself Coming to mind, how could I love someone else Gotta get to what’s mine, the core inside, the essence Otherwise, there’s time but no presence I'm the king and I know it into the depth of my cells Been everything to fine women, fine when it comes to the shelf Psychotic hoes are glorified, it actually sells Like it’s so hot with women with a lack of mental health, no They speak about a broken heart But that’s a heart in two, my parts are so far apart they can’t renew If I’ve argued with you, or even bothered to tell you the truth It’s cause some part of me actually guarded you That’s how you’re protected, I go farther for you Smart with my selection of people, apart from a few Sometimes the only reference to pull is the fact You do what feels right at the time it happens, and that’s that Close your eyes at night, make up with your concepts here Wake up with a clear sight when your conscience’s clear They say the devils in the details, but tell me where The only monsters here is the one we see in the mirror Cast a spell for hell to disappear Can’t believe I fell for believing hell was anywhere else but here Stairway to heaven, but I can’t find the stairs So many different levels, different energy fields I can walk in a room and tell exactly who’s there Can feel the mood, who to be near and what to beware For real, because I'm aware And that’s the difference between me and you I'm true to my feels They say: You gotta keep it real Sounding hood, but what’s the meaning if you’re not really sincere? If you’re faker than your crocodile tears or the smile that you wear Then we know it’s because you wanna sound good But don’t let me be the one to stop this charade A bunch of dumb motherfuckers on this walking parade Because I'm numb to most of you, and all that you say I'm the truth so you don’t get passed the small talk or a hey I’ve had people believe in me who barely heard about me And then who I’d see as family who’d be the first to doubt me And you wonder why the fuck I got my head held high Chest out 'cause if you don’t vouch for me know I will do it proudly You made me loose faith, and use hate You gave me new ways, when it was too late You have me constantly, caught between Two different roads where one is thoughtfully Planned out, the other one is possibly Headed towards a place where probably Every decision made, gave astoundingly Horrible repercussions, I solemnly Swear to never repeat the same mistake I learned my lesson, time to take my fate Into my own hands, understand Non of this commotion alternated my stance I kept on telling myself and those around I got this figured out, I got profound Ideas and dreams, my fear it seems To force me to a stalemate by any means You’re the reason I became traumatized To the point I sat, almost paralyzed Feeling terrified to even go outside All this time I thought I tried to