This might be the realest shit I ever wrote

Like why the fuck I always feel alone?
I don't know why I always feel alone
Know you cried but I fuckin' tried
You up by my side, I was still alone
Sometimes I miss the way it was
Only okay when I'm off the drugs
I ain't been outside, I ain't seen the Sun
I've been tryna stay away from everyone
We do not love when we need it most
Run from the truth 'til we see it close
I can never tell what's fake or real
Your love haunts me still like I'm seeing ghosts
I know the emptiness of feelin' numb inside
When your heart is breakin', you too numb to cry
So you turn to pills and I know the feeling
You don't wanna live so you'd rather die
But, none of us really wanna die alone
So many times you would cry alone
I can't say I don't think about you
But these feelings are easier to hide than show
Tell me what's love?

I don't get it still
I just need a place where you never feel
Need a place where pain don't exist
So I started asking God if heavens real
Yeah, I don't get it still
I just need a place where you never feel
Need a place where pain don't exist
So I started asking God if heavens real
Yeah, I don't get it still
Need a place where you never feel
Need a place where pain don't exist
So I started asking God if heavens real
Yeah

(Sick of takin' pills, sick of spendin' time trying not to feel, yeah
'Cause I'm sick of gettin' high, sick of takin' pills, sick of spendin' time trying not to feel, yeah)
'Cause I'm sick of gettin' high, sick of takin' pills, sick of spendin' time trying not to feel
Body shakin' lately, I can't keep it still
I need something real, I just wanna feel something
Heart beatin', blood rushin', I'm sick of trying to feel nothin'
I'm sick of trying to feel nothin'
'Cause I'm sick of gettin' high, sick of takin' pills, sick of spendin' time trying not to feel
Body shakin' lately, I can't keep it still
I need something real, I just wanna feel something
Heart beatin', blood rushin', I'm sick of trying to feel nothin'
I'm sick of trying to feel nothin', yeah